When I was 17 I had a had sex with a stranger. I was obviously pregnant, to my mom at least. I didn’t know. On my 18th birthday my mom made me take a pregnancy test. When It came back positive, I showed her and we both just sat there. She finally said “you have to make a choice” at 5 months pregnant abortion was not an option. Not that, that would have been an option for me, as someone who firmly believes in life. I hadn’t heard from the father. I didn’t know his name or have a way to contact him. I decided I was capable, no matter how difficult it would end up being, of caring for a child. I went in for my first ultra sound at 22 weeks. Before I went in, I looked at my mom and said “its a boy”. I was right. My Little angel was born 19 weeks later. After my son was born, I started looking for his father. I went on the website I first found him on. it took me three months to find him. I sent him a picture and told him he was a father. I told him you can go get a paternity test and we’ll go from there or you can not respond to this and you wont hear from me again. A month later he asked me where he could get the test done. After a year of him stalling and making excuses he finally was tested and paternity was proven. I asked him to meet with me and talk about what he wants. When we met he told me that he didn’t want to be a father right now, that I should have gotten an abortion. I thanked him for meeting with me and we went our separate ways. 3 months later I received a text from him asking if he was allowed to change his mind and meet his son. I was so tempted to say no. I knew if he met his son that he would fall in love with him. I would have to share my world. I would have to trust a stranger. As a woman I would have refused him but I am a mother first and foremost. My son deserves a father. He became involved and he became a father to our son. We went on our first date, 6 months ago. Our son is now 3 years old. I never expected that the man I had a one night stand with would get me pregnant. I never expected that he would choose to be involved. I never expected him to be a great father. Life threw me on this difficult path. I have struggled and often wanted to give up. I’ve come to believe that if you do your best, things turn out all right. I don’t know how things will end up between me and my sons father but I’ve decided not to expect anything.